MY HEART IS FOR FAMILY, MY BRAIN AND MY BALLS ARE FOR BUSINESS. THIS IS BUSINESS

::cinderella man::

i thought of the basis for a new idea today, ‘the incubaker’. its incredible how invigorating a single idea can be. you can be slaving away at a keyboard doing work, but just knowing you have that idea in the back of your head makes you feel like a million bucks. I have more or less decided the buzz idea, later known as eyalo, is a lost cause. i dont think the market will embrace it, unless by sheer marketing force. a force which requires serious managment and a bottomless pocket. the concept while decent and well developed didnt tap into what people really wanted, it relies on what people needed. eyalo relied on peoples need for a job. many, including me about 1 day ago when i convinced myself otherwise, would argue that an individuals needs are far more reliable as source to tap into as opposed to wants. but i have come to realize that wants have a more controlling impact in todays narcissitic society. whether right or wrong, many people have diverged from our caveman instincts of meetings our basic needs and we feel the right to over indulge well beyond our needs. this is best seen through the overwhelming amount of debt in todays socitety. people want more than what they can afford. they want beyond there needs and they are willing to disregard the negative impacts of the future to take advantage of the present. the bonus of incubaker is it allows for a positive embrace of peoples wants. it encourages growth within peoples passion and creative ideas. it gives people a reason not to waste away in the hours after work. it provides an escape from what seems like the limits of reality and acts as a gateway to area where peoples creativity and open-mindedness are the respected and there title and salary are disregarded. of course the social benefit of helping the lone soldier escape from his cubicle is distant if to exist at all, however the benefit to the select few who become memebers of the core and extended team will be soon realized. this is the dream of incubaker. this is business.

this thought comes as an amendment to ‘everything off’, a sidetrack further discussing the stowboard which rocked my world for all of month before it failed the durability test, aka my roomates exessive jumping on it. in any case the story of stow: i have always thought a folding skateboard would a fantastic idea. so i decided i would build one. but before invested my time an money into building one i decided i would score the internet for one that already existed. and low and behold i came across a product that i could not have designed better myself with just about every feature well designed and implemented, i was so pyched about the product i contacted that manufacturer/distributer, and spoke to him about resaling the product at retail….so it seemed. the board folded to the width of a piece of paper and, and when extended its large front wheels man-handled any obstacles in the road. the most unique aspect were the cone shaped wheels in the back of the board that allowed for some serious street carving. after about a month of enjoying my toy, it began to not ride as well as it did on purchase. to make a long story short i bought new bearings, board still didnt ride right and i went back to walking to the subway stop. then i went back to my original skateboard from highschool [upgraded with 65s] and the ‘everything off’ story continues.

this past sunday i was curising around on my new 65s. thats 65mm wheels i got for my skateboard. i was pretty psyched with the improvement from my previous rock-hard wheels. I also had them replace my bearings with a set of brand new abec 5s that i had bought for my stowboard. while cruisin in the sunday sun, i rode by a massage place. lately i had been thinking of getting some type of a massage while still in the city so i was poking around outside reading the sign. a woman came outside and told my to come in, thats pretty much all the convincing i needed. i thought i would have sat in the window of the front of the shop and get some type of foot reflexology type massage, but the woman led me down a dark and narrow hallway and opened a curtain to her right. i went inside and saw the massage bed and realized i was in for a full body massage. i had never had one before so i figured now was as good a time as any. the woman closed the curtain and left. i wasnt sure what was going on, but in my akwardness i sat on the massage tabled and waited. 5 mins later i hear, “ready?” one of the few english words this woman seemed to know. i replied excitedly “yes!” she entered the room and through her glued on smile i could tell something was amiss, she seemed let down. and she said “u want back?!?” as she pointed and made a mimed massage motion, i replied “umm, yes!” and she quickly responded, “well, shirt off!” [with a smile] then she pointed to my legs and made the same hand motion, “legs?!?”, again i replied with an agreeable “yes!”, “wellll”, she reponded, “pants off!”, in an effort to get the most comprehensive massage session, and avoid her going through every district of the body, i said “i guess i want everything!”… and the clever masseuse reponded with the same smile “wellllll, everything off!”

after my 40 minute massage, i walked my gumbo feeling body outside and i continued my sunday cruise. where i ended my adventure in brooklyn for bbq.

“because we are only human, any unjustified choice not to embrace another or their ideals is rooted at a discomfort and distrust in ourselves”

i had been reading a book and began to doze off. while asleep my brain began to formulate the above quote, testing then rewording it. in this deam of sorts, once my brain agreed with the quote i kept repeating it to myself in my head, not sure why. before i knew it i was awake repeating. i even think i began to say it aloud. i dont know the signifigance of the time or why my brain kept thinking about it, but i quickly grabbed the closest scrap of paper to reanalyze in the morning. looking back on the quote now, i still agree with it. it makes sense, but it is nothing new, it seems pretty logical. i began to think of how this quote related to me specifically. i quickly thought of one thing that in the past i have made an “unjustified choice not to embrace” and that is snakes. perhaps i am not comfortable with snakes becuase i dont trust myself around them. not positive as to what that means but its at start.

getting pretty psyched about all this blogging, and im only two blogs deep. i gave the blog a huge facelift, ditching the standard google template and upgrading to a custom design, i like the graphics it gives the site a personal feel, and if i am gonna be spending time posting on the site i should at least contribute to the aesthetics. the person in the picture in the header is me at a beach in CA. highlight of that day was touching a snake. some random guy picked up a snake he saw slithering around the walkway down to beach and he was just holding it. i gave it a little poke. im almost completely over my unjustified fear of snakes.